# Give up myself?

- Link: https://www.andreidraganescu.info/2017/03/02/give-up-myself/
- Published: 2017-03-02T18:20:47+03:00
- Author: Andrei Draganescu

> question every single definition, theory, concept, and practice you have inherited
> that tells you how to think, behave, emote, or interact with others.
> Karen Kilbane

But what am I left with? Who gives me back the time I waste on questioning everything?
Why do I have to know all these things? Who will reward me for passing on so many
Netflix and Chill and pizza and hanging out and stargazing? Why do I have to understand
everything and why isn’t there someone to just tell me how it is and what to do?
I am not lazy, I am just insecure. Who am I to decide on important matters? Why 
do I have to make up ways to think, behave, emote, or interact with others and why
the old ones aren’t good all of a sudden?

> understand that from a personal vantage point, every single solitary person thinks
> they are correct in how they assess and conclude.
> Karen Kilbane

No, I always doubt myself. Of course the reasons I doubt myself for are perfectly
legitimate and because I doubt myself I have the right to pass judgements onto all
others. My conclusions therefore are made with great caution to maintain my internal
order inherited from well proven tradition.

> reject the idea some people are more enlightened, spiritually or otherwise.
> Karen Kilbane

What about Einstein? Do you mean to tell me Einstein was like me or you? Or what
about Elon Musk? Or Osho? Or the Buddha himself, or Jesus. I am not even near that
level of understanding, those people just knew how things are because they are geniuses
or special spiritual beings.

> be brave. Letting go of cherished practices and beliefs is like letting go of 
> a loved one.
> Karen Kilbane

But who will love me if I let go? Who is there to tell me I am good and nice when
I leave the loved one? What is the reward for my braveness?

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There is someone in the comments here who thinks being aggressive works wonders.
Another one who takes it all first person. Some others who delve into a whole network
of adjacent subjects.

How to explain all this great advice without triggering self defence or fear of 
the unknown?