# Pain, Angst, Anger. Do seeds, does rain, do rocks have them?

- Link: https://www.andreidraganescu.info/2016/08/03/pain-angst-anger-do-seeds-does-rain-do-rocks-have-them/
- Published: 2016-08-03T19:22:41+03:00
- Author: Andrei Draganescu

> So why are you afraid?

Because I am a subjective object self aware and thrown into an abyss of meaninglessness,
with a countdown tied to my heart.

> But you are not different.

Yes I am! I am not _special_. But by all means I am different. My experience crafted
me, your experience crafted you. There are no two raindrops perfectly identical 
when they hit the ground, mainly because of the dust they pick up on their way down.
So it is with us humans, we pick up bits of stardust which makes us become more 
than different: unique.

> But you are not the only one breaking, falling, splitting.

This doesn’t make it any easier, nor does it change the intimate way breaking, falling
and splitting happen for humans. Suffering comes from awareness, Umair. Suffering
is not because of lack of empathy, these are bad thoughts to inflict on others. 
Suffering is worth of the consideration a wise and powerful enemy should get, it
is not some side effect of a personality defect or character flaw, which can be 
cast away by personal development.

All the empathy stuffed in you will make you suffer even more, for you will become
aware thousandfold for every other’s suffering, more anticipation.

> You call all this suffering. But it is better to just call it becoming.

You live, you learn. But by simply calling it becoming, it will not take the pain
away. Oh, and clarity comes only once the pain succumbs.

> The love in you is mightier still.

Why is love better than, say, compassion? Or wisdom? Or equilibrium? Or continence?
Who made the chart? Isn’t it _a bit_ mistaken to teach the supremacy of love in 
a world where people are controlled by anger? I wonder a lot if love really emancipates
the human being. Its irrationality and downward direction are giving me the doubts.

> Stop asking. Just start seeing. The answer of answers is right there before you.

Oh no! Do not stop asking. Questions are the arrows pointing to answers. Without
questions answers are embedded in reality with such fine stitches that you can never
spot them among everything else. And behold, patches of wrong answers lurk in the
dark, waiting for you to take them in, while you’re vulnerable missing the sharp
tip of good questions asked.

> Now you have empathy. You have seen into the heart of the truest thing in all 
> creation. The mighty river of love.

If it were that easy, I can bet on ten thousand years of work towards switching 
on the empathy button in children to have worked. The swarm of priests would have
done a better job, with raving reviews. The books and songs of humanity would have
moved us all towards peace and common prosperity. If it were that easy, inequality
would have been an unknown concept considering the good intentions we’ve started
with.

It is not [umair haque](https://medium.com/@umairh).